worship me part 1

People laugh and talk around me but im alone. I never really , met any one intresting ..and dating was something the more popular kids did to just make them seem "cool" its only sluts in this high school any way.the tapping of my feet on the side walk distract mefeom the eyes that stare at me with discuss. this just adds on to my thoughts of changing.I dont think , my family would mind,there heads are always some were eals .work, school, studies.its what we are excpected to do as honor students, not that 11th grade is hard.I let out a deep sigh as the light disaperd and it became night the tall buildings hid the stars and moon makin it kinda lonly and empty . I shifted off into a ally were no one could see me.I pulled out and grasped the small pills in my hand .there was only 3 red pills , thats all it wouls take to change my life from boring to non existent,  i couldnt think about it any more i know this is what needs to be done, this every day scedule is killing me , im done with it.pressing the pills into my mouth i slide down dittin in the dort i once stood in.i did it.

5 mintes past before i realy felt the pain sink in, my body starting to feel limp and my eye sight goin blurry.i thought the last thing i would see before i die was a brick wall and some trash...but i saw a man.about my age crouchig infront of me, he looked sad.

"Its ok, im just making change, change is good" i grinned trying tomreasure the male.his face was still sad

"No one needs me, it will be ok" he ignored my words and put his arms around me lifting me up  bridle style .I couldnt keep my eye sight from leaveing all I could do was listen to the shouts of the male then nothing just he feeling of him holding me.he was warm,